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Hey! The names Amber, Boston is my home. I'm on lvl 26 of life, I like oldies, spn, turtles, and the color green :) • I am just a wandering bitch who uses bad comedy as a coping mechanism for dealing with the weight of reality. It seems to be working so far. • I have ADHD! And I'm really open about it because I think it's really important to talk about and educate as many people about it as possible. (More info about it in the panel all about my ADHD! Emphasis on the MY!)

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THINGS TO KEEP IN MIND (pertaining to this!): - Sometimes I might not always remember to look at the chat. So I apologize in advance if I miss your message! Feel free to resend it! :D (If you keep sending it 100 times and I don't respond, I'm ignoring you and you need to take a hint.) - Another thing you can expect to happen, is just sometimes I'll talk about something, and forget what I was talking about, right in the middle of thinking of it. I might need chat to help me out and remind me what I was discussing. - I can forget what I was talking about literally 2 seconds after, it's really wild to experience, but I need help in these moments. Obviously it's ok if you weren't paying attention too! (We just end up losing the topic until the vod goes up OR if someone manages to clip it!) - Don't assume you know everything about it. This might come of as a bit harsh but I know to expect some skeptics or people who read one article and think they know everything. - Sometimes I will forget to do something and just need a little nudge reminder, that'll help me immensely. - Don't be afraid to ask questions! If you're not sure if your question is ok to ask in chat, feel free to whisper to one of the mods the question first! • Ok so I have ADHD, but this is where I will actually explain about it a bit more. I have been diagnosed since I was in about 1st grade, so very young. I can't pin point the exact age I started but I remember going to lots of doctors appointments, when you get diagnosed it's a really long process and it will last months. Since I was diagnosed at a super young age, which is when you're supposed to be diagnosed, but sadly some people have missed out on that early diagnosis and are for sure going to have a lot of work ahead of them. But you can do this! So I spent a lot of my childhood knowing I had this disorder, but that was is it. Nobody explained to me the nooks and crannies and intricacies of the disorder, they just gave me the gist, and it wasn't until I was about 15 when I would start doing my own research about it. So it was kind of weird to know you had this disorder and basically my impression of it when I was younger was that I was broken. Which is not the case and is a terrible thing for children to think about themselves. When I finally learned what it really was and how it would affect literally every aspect of my life. Down to how I live in my room to how I socialize with others. Learning it truly affects every aspect. Due to no one telling me as a child that the symptoms I would get, were normal, that they would be MY normal. I was a really angry child. I was labeled a troublemaker or a problem child. One thing you might struggle with while living with ADHD is aggression and an inability to regulate your emotions. Unless you have a guardian to teach you how to, you will not learn on your own. This is the kind of ADHD I live with, I almost feel like you could theoretically say it was a waste to get a diagnosis if they didn't even bother to explain the fine details. And that sounds dramatic as hell. But when you've feet like something is wrong but you don't get to put a name to it, you don't get to totally feel like yourself. You're saturated with emotion, angry and confused. You might understand why it sounds dramatic, it feels dramatic! As I got older, I finally started to learn more about ADHD. I started to learn that some of the mannerisms I had were common in others with this disorder. There have been time's I was so relieved due to learning so many things about it, and finding out that for me, it's totally normal, that I would become so emotional. Emotions affect us differently and stronger than a neurotypical person, to the point it may hurt as equally as real physical pain for some people. • One really important aspect of ADHD, this is a condition only seen in people of neurodivergence, is something called RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria). To quote a simple search from google; "RSD is an extreme emotional sensitivity and emotional pain triggered by the perception — not necessarily the reality — that a person has been rejected, teased, or criticized." So little things like off-hand comments that you probably wouldn't even think about. One might feel like they were answering or saying it half heatedly or like they were annoyed with you and this is something we that can make us very emotional, even imagining the possibility of rejection, when it may not be the reality of the situation. If you go without ever learning about it you can have a difficult time reassuring yourself they aren't thinking that about you. But even if you've actually gotten them to reassure you and you logically piece together it's impossible at this point. You can emotionally still be left like it hurts because, well, it does hurt, that's what our brains can do to us. It may take a while before that feeling subsides, and you either forget about it later or remember it again another day and worry may stack. It's absolutely bonkers. (Obviously, some of us are observant and have learned through experience when someone is trying to manipulate a reaction from us and we usually can ignore that, or call them out on it.) I only just recently learned about RSD in my lifetime and I've gone about 17ish years being diagnosed with ADHD, but I've had it my whole life. To go that long without learning about RSD. Or learning additional parts of ADHD in general. And more importantly, learning how to pin point the exact way I was feeling. Something I struggle with doing a lot because I was never taught how to regulate my emotions when I was younger. It was always apart of ADHD! Apart of being nuerodivergent! And to only explain to kids the GIST??? Of what is going on, and how their brain is wired and how they're going to have to operate it and how it's different than a brain is typically wired. They never explained that to me, I don't know if they explain that to people now, but I know it's so important to do so! It's like way to leave the kid hanging! That is going to leave them with much more work later on in life and it could have been prevented early on! RSD is only one of the MANY parts of ADHD, theres even more that I may even try to talk about here on the channel. But SO many more than I could ever list, I think it's best to talk about them when you have a related subject. It's so important to just be able to talk about it, maybe not venting but just a way to figure out how to figure out how living with it works. I will always talk about it because if people never did I never would've ever thought about it again I would've forgotten it's like an actual problem. That's how I started being interested in researching it, I already knew I had it but I didn't know there was more than what I knew, and once I saw that there was and it was actually a PRETTY BIG DEAL, I have been blowing my own mind ever since. It's really just fascinating to learn about something, especially something you have yourself. The best part about it, is it's so common, the last statistic I read from some article back in 2018, apparently 1 in 10 kids have ADHD, and that's going by the diagnosed kids. That's wild, it's also bittersweet, because although we have so many great examples of cases of ADHD. The discussion with ADHD is only just starting to gain traction everywhere, and it's still very slow, and that means there are still so many people who don't regularly talk or think about it and those of us who live with it can maybe forget that. We're so surrounded with communities we've discovered to help ourselves, we may not have realized that outside of them the discussions are pretty scarce. I go about my day with confidence that this is general knowledge, and am constantly reminded it's not the case. I can take them moments to educate people but sometimes anxiety or shortness of time can prevent a proper explanation. It discussions were more commonplace, this would occur less often. I hope you can take something from this and take your time to do your own research, whether it be for the benefit of yourself, or someone you know. It's always amazing to learn new things, especially about the brain and the many ways it exist. :) • This panel was last edited on April 30th, 2022, I will add more to it when I can!